date: Tuesday, January 31, 2006 @ 3:40 am
title: Ba Cinci Bog..
Ah ha!Finally collecting enough dust on The Da Vinci Code novel,I finally DEAR (Drop Everything And Read) the morbid text.Ok lar. Some part I got abit brainwashed. But still.. knowing that its just a fictional intriguing chase of the theme: real vs fiction. Say or not to say. Men and women. I would conclude that it was beautifully composed with amazing foreshadowing smack right up everywhere. Never would I condone the awesomeness of being able to R&R - rest and read.Something that I need to motivate myself to mug for good. Just like the O's. I need to focus on something that interests me with ample time to complete what I desire and I would be fine. Reading is therapetic and diet-free. I missed my dinner and reduce the tendency to munch tibits while I scanned the pages sweatlessly.I reckoned nothing pays well than a good day's off to liquify my brains, crystalise my cells, instituationalise the sources and commericalise my ideas. Reading is haven. I love when people give me books to devote on, spending time communing with the alphabets and absorbing the romances preach by the language.Althou I have struggles with language and understanding especially pertain to deep stuff but I realise the beauty of being ignorance and pretending to be, would be a greater blessing than to be expose to unnecesscary boorish, coarse, whatever rubbish that man could ever produce with. political trash is one that I detest the most. Humans are so exclusive that pride takes the place of friendliness at times which breed contension between the conflicting ideaologies. Can't homo sapins live a stressfree life for once and put aside arguements?I ain't lifestyle gura, but I gradudally learn the art of simplicity - love God wholeheartly, love people fervently. Am I in love? Duh.. Nothing beats a good love life that induces love juice that overflow tremendously from the vault of the love tank. Everyone has one, so do I. Sometime we can generate by ourselves, sometime we aren't able to. Sometimes by giving them would in turn enable yourself to reap more then expected or not even expecting.I'm learning to forgive myself and love myself for who I am. Whether perfect or not, but fix my eyes on the prize at the end of the race here on earth. Knowing that I have flaws and competing with other would just make myself feel worse.I have decided to give up competition and love those I can love and love even more those I can't. Some people do hate me and I have to come to consensus with that. If I love Jesus, somebody would hate me. Its the rule of thumb. I can do whatever I can but its limited. Even still. I dun think I love Him enough.Solution: Pray lor. Nothing beats a good prayer time, beside reading. Gossip to God is good. He disciplines you for that. 'Physical discipline purges sin' I'm always afraid of getting corrected, that's sickening! But what can I do? Change lor. I know sometimes or most of the time I would only speak of one tactic but carry the another directly contradicting action to substain my flickal mindedness, but I choose to pursit the changes, not the breakthru after breakthru. It's the process that matters, not the result walways. But definately with the positive process begets positvie outcome no matter what the conquences is.Today is CNY Day 3. Public holiday. Might be crashing the Botatical Garden with Mama n Dada. Dunno yet but need to focus on Econs for the moment and jot down crazy last-time resolution on my 'burn' book.I wonder how's Ber doing over @ Aust. Oei! Get back to me via email when you see this. Somebody misses you ma. Where is the shouting of my name?
date: Saturday, January 28, 2006 @ 2:30 am
title: wet diet..
Wait sheAs the night turns dark
I wait for u with luck.
Hoping to my phone to buzz
with your big name fast.
Sit and sleep.
Wait and leap.
It seems ages that u reply.
I guess u have lied
Off there I went to lie,
on cloud nine
just like that night.
That silent night.
Faintly I drown in
fairy tales and nevereverland.
Nice to meet u, friendFine! u made me a fiendNightmare. It just a bad dream.
Or is it a dream within a dream.
The night that mares the realm of silence
and sciences of the beast.
When will fate
bring u here to fade again?
(Oh never again! Hehehe..)
date: Sunday, January 15, 2006 @ 5:33 pm
title: Faith.
Faith. Simply irresistible.
What is faith? It is the confident assurance that what you hope for is going to happen. It is the evidence of yet unseen.
Mic-conversation with Ber. Ha!
date: Saturday, January 07, 2006 @ 8:09 pm
title: Moko..
Amazingly..
I just found out that I have attitude problem.
Serious attitude problem. Trying too hard to do thing by my own.
'Let God be God. Let man be man.'
Sometime I think too much just becos I just want to make things happen by my own knowledge and from that gave birth to self-centerness. From that arises ill-discipline.
Dinner with family. Vertical confession with absolute trust is the key to deeper understanding. Rejection is not by self but by those who are think of themselves too much. Whether or not. everyone is guilty of it. no matter how fast or far you run. you will always be chained tagged by the number one wanted man in Jesus' criminal list - Devil. But once u break off the bondages, by default, you are enlisted into Devil's wanted man collection.
Be part of the Devil's wanted collection.
If u have the capacity to be evil.
You got the stamina to be mean and evil to Satan himself.
Make a difference today.
Do what you are best in and work on your weakness.
The world needs another hero not zero.
They have enough to share around.
Make God's work easier. Bring heaven to earth. Gospel to all.
'I am who I am'
date: @ 6:02 pm
title: Fought..
An argument we had
Made mummy more mad
Everything that I said nothing can change
the width the length nor the range
Slamming me hard with all her might
I cannot withstand the chill cold night
Never once she ask me why
just reason and made me want to lie
with tear and sorrow hard to bear
that I need to take a break to catch some air
Honor your parents I try to care
but ended up I lose my hair
so to please her
is my only reason to hear
date: Monday, January 02, 2006 @ 8:00 pm
title: Chic-molar..
Its been long since ages ago that I comment something that have been changed radically in my mundane life that been gripped by fear.
Well. Lets talk about Narina.
Twice I have watched it and each time it was a different feeling and revelation of each cut scene. It was feeding the brain-dead me. But how much can I get from the movie? Whatever the author C. S. Lewis tried to convey through his writing is not the same as how the Director interprets it.
C. S. Lewis is a brilliant guy. So much for the legendary author that his novels were once condemned to be heretic and occult bibles. Hahaha.. three cheers for his heavily bibicially connotated plot about the Pevensie siblings redeeming the Narina and her civilians and exterminating the self-proclaimed queen bee hee hee..
'I love Aslan.'The all wise guy that is all fluffy and dangerously sexy. oops..
Anyway. No mood to blog. Just wan to going back to finish the discontinued Da Vinic Code and reconcile with my holiday homework cos I dreamt of forsaking them by a violent push and let them take a 15 storeys dive from my bedroom window.
'Da Da Da..'Mentioning about Da Vinic Code. Seducing. I mean the plot but not the whole freemason thingy or the Kinght Templars. Although I disagree with the Dan Brown's abuses of the loopholes of the unresolved Chrisitian history but I think he could have wrote on other policitial loopholes than these kind of sensitive issue. He will still do well. I believe.
On second thought, he might have thought through thorough enough to know the possible consequences of his writings. If during the medivial time, he would be hanged for treason or being thrown into the wells of fire for his heretic movements if the Chruch was e government like during the Martin Luther's (By the way, he's my hero.) period. Dan should be quite contented with the verbal criticism and religious pinpointing that he's facing. (Which I believe so.) Otherwise. His writings would be classified as confidental (religiously denounced) documents.
Okie. Enough of babblering.
Zip!Watching Campus Superstar. Vote for M2 - Yiyuan.
By the way. Happy New Year n Merry Christmas!
